Sudden Realisation

OMG I looked at my calendar this morning and discovered that it is less than 40 weeks until my 30th Birthday.

I don't know whether to laugh or cry.

Laugh because I had set myself some goals to reach before I was 30 and I must of been on drugs or something. And cry for the very same reason, because those goals seem so far out of reach now that I just want to curl up in the corner and disappear.

All that talk, all that hope and ALL OF THAT HARD WORK, I have put in up till now just seems like a bloody waste of time.

So I have a choice to make and I need to do it now. I can curl up in the corner and get more and more depressed as my 30th approaches or I can pull my finger out of my butt and work even harder.

On a cold day like today the first option seems so much easier, but my weight struggles go beyond me right now, it is about my husband, my children, my family, my trainers and my friends. I WON"T GIVE IN NOW, I can't.

For anyone that knows me they know that I am competitive and losing is not an option.

So c'mon Kylie you can do this and while you may not fit into your dress B4 you are 30 you are going to try your hardest to get as close as you can.